Only five months have passed, as of today. Only five short, incredibly fast months since she was placed in our arms.
We had what you could call, a very difficult transition period when we met Keira in January.
Many of you who followed along read what a very sad, traumatic, trying, and difficult transition we experienced.
And it was heartbreaking on so many levels - the disappointment and rejection AB and I felt seemed insurmountable in moments
and there are many, many people reading this blog who are still waiting parents
some of them even getting ready to travel
and all the excitement and fears and wonder and anxiousness can be extremely overwhelming
so maybe when you read a blog like mine, and you read a story like Keira's - it makes you sad or makes you feel vulnerable, maybe scared...hoping it's not like that for you. And I can so understand that. I've been right where you are. And for us, it ended up being exactly what we had feared, in so many ways. And I pray for you it's not.
However, not too many people - not nearly enough people - will tell you like it is, the way I told it like it was. Especially from this type of format - where many of us are strangers and I have nothing to gain by exposing my heartache.
Except...
except now I want you to know something...need you to know something
No matter what darkness we walked through five months ago - we knew one thing remained...Hope.
There was always hope deep down in our spirits
There is always a way when your will is strong
There is always direction, if you're looking to find it
Wisdom. Strength. Perseverance.
And love, love, and more love.
Not easy. But always there.
I leaned heavily on the love and comfort of my Heavenly Father. I cannot tell you how much that one thing alone carried me through such a difficult and trying season of my motherhood experience.
and so, I'm here...telling it like it is, and this time, I think you'll like it.
That no matter what happens when you're united with your little one - you all know who you are - those traveling, waiting for referrals, or contemplating adoption
no matter what happens in those first moments, those first weeks, months...maybe even longer for some - still...
there is hope
there is always hope
lean on it...lean into it...be comforted in it...
focus your eyes on it
grab hold of it
dwell on it in the dark moments and bask in it when it covers you
This is how we made it to where we are now
with her...
Hope. Believing in tomorrow. Hoping...
Perhaps it's better to show you...
and so with hope in our hearts
and love, love, and more love...
five months later...
there is Hope
and love, love, and more love
15 comments :
What a truly beautiful post Christie. You always did put your whole soul into whatever it was you wanted, whether it be singing, writing, or now motherhood. I am so proud of the wonderful woman that is the mother of my 2 very special grandchildren, and is my daughter!
God Bless you sugar. I love you very much!!!
Mom
Oh Christie - that pic of Keira with her little arms outstretched to Daddy is just priceless. Makes my heart melt...
What a difference 5 months can make!
Thanks for being Real.
I love this. :) Thank you for sharing your journey to Keira and more importantly, thank you for sharing the true story. Tessa was our third adoption...I so thought I was prepared, but the jet lag on the way home knocked me on my you know what. And my baby was EASY...but MY transition was tough. I thought I'd made a mistake...but now, 10 months later, I am SO in love with my daughter...my sweet girl.
For everyone still waiting...just be kind to yourself during the transition.
Truly amazing!
LOVE, LOVE, LOVE the before and after pictures!!!!!!!!!! You can so see the joy on her sweet little face now. I love happy endings! Hope is a wonderful thing.....thanks for sharing your story with all of us.
Trish
We all need to be honest. Adoption is not the easy way to have children. Through, the wait, the worries, to questions, the first picture, the gotcha day, the ride back to the hotel, the door closes of your hotel rooms and you are alone with the sweet baby who only want the life it knew before. Even though it wasn't a great life, it was the life they knew. With patience, love, prayers, patience, love, patience... this sweet child will get it that you are there for she/him. It is not an easy road but soooo worth it. Yes, there is hope. It comes along, keep faith. Love and hope will get through... and honesty. Love your words Christie
Hope, love and determination and REWARDS, unfathomable rewards.
Missing you!
Hope your time there is wonderful.
Love V
She is beautiful. It looks like things are going better. Have a great summer and I am looking forward to more updates. Blessings.
Beautiful, as always! Love it !
Your Kentucky Friend.
I have this belief that you will find in life, the things that you need. I needed this post- in a big way.
We are waiting for TA to pick up our son who is 20 mos old and I am filled with fear and anxiety at times- I need to hang on to the Hope.
Thank you!
PS Hope the Big Apple is treating you well.
We have friends who have been home just a month, having adopted from Ethiopia. I am so sending her here.
Such a beautiful post, so eloquently written, and "real" as always! "Hope" is an amazing thing...what a difference 5 months make. I love the expression on her face as she jumps into her daddy's arms! Thank you for continuing to share your story.
Christie this was an incredibly beautiful post, and just in case your wondering...I have learned so many invaluable lessons from you and while I am at it, I just have to add that you are one of the most real people I know! You and I are quite alike, with me what you see is what you get! You are just the cream of the crop sister and I love you for being you!
Love, Kristy
I love this post. The pics and the words - all just eloquently (again, with the eloquence!) show the nature of love. The hard times, the despair, the longing, the hope. There is hope. There is always hope. I'm especially fond of the word, hope. So much so that we used it in our girl's name. The Lord gave me Psalm 71:5&6 as her life verse and it's gotten us through many a tough day, remembering that HE is our hope. HE put that hope in me. In her.
GREAT post. And I love the new look. Sooo summery!
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