October 5, 2009

Spectacular Silence

That's what the China adoption community is hearing right now...and it is spectacular.  Spectacularly deafening. No rumors.  No bones.  No words.  No e-mails.  No updates.  Just silence.

And as I've said recently - this waiting, no matter how close or far you sit - is for the birds.  When I say "it's just time", I want you to read = "stick a fork in me, I'm done".  Mmmkay?

I can get over it.  And I will, just like everyone else - one day at a time.  And our good news is on the horizon and the fund-raising projects are still plugging away.  It's my gut feeling we might even see her face next week.  But who can say?

Do you know who it bothers me more for, lately?  Not me.  Not AB.

Him.



Because most times I miss it, but then there are rare moments that I see it more clearly through the lens of my camera....



...He's lonely



Maybe more than I am for her.

the heart wants what the heart wants...




we want Keira


Soon, little man.  Soon.


"But the steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; His mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning.  Great is Your Faithfulness, O' God." Lamentations 3:22-23





11 comments :

Valerie said...

Enjoy your one on one time with each other, because it is limited.

Soon enough everything will be done in pairs.

Bring my little Q-ball over so I can luv him up and let him and Aubriana calculate ways to outwit Lil Dude.

Before you even realize it, you will be a family of four.

Love V

S.Wise said...

The silence is well... very silent. :)

Sue said...

Hang in there...you're so close!

I see you are with GWCA. We used them too for our adoption...love them!

Sue : )

3D said...

It is deafening and I am looking forward to joyful noise!

Keep smilin!

Kayce said...

Soon. So so soon!

Briana's Mom said...

I seriously cannot believe all the silence. Hope you hear some good news soon.

Our Journey to Jadyn Nicole said...

Christie - You will have your baby girl home very soon. Count your blessings and enjoy the time you have with your little man. I'm so glad he is feeling better.

Hugs,
Vicki

Cora said...

Can't wait to see Quint and Keira playing together. Hope you see her face real soon and then are holding her before you know it!

Jesi and Joe said...

Sheesh, you could VENT if you want to! :-) You're so gracious in your patience! WHINE deary! Really, I would be moaning my tail off by now! You will be seeing her lovely little face soon... and I know it won't be as soon enough (as in it should have already happened, come on!!!), but it will be soon! Like it's already been said though... enjoy the one on one time, cause soon your Quint time will get split and you'll find yourself missing it a bit! :-)

Annie said...

no perfect words for you...just that, I am sorry for you that you are in this long wait. Can't wait to click on here in the next week or so and here the beautiful details of seeing your daughter's face.

Kristy said...

Beautiful post Christie....and just for the record I am so done with all of this waiting too!!

Love, Kristy