September 29, 2009

Too late to be Late

You know, I don't want to be a wise-acre.  I don't.

But it's time, you know?  I's been over four years since we started this process to adopt Keira.  It's been almost four years since we sent our paperwork to China to be logged in.  It's been exactly three years and six months since we were logged in.

And it's just time.

Not including those who will wait long after us, we have officially waited the longest period of time for a referral.

And when I read about the hurt it causes others waiting with us - with a similar or exact LID as we have - and when I see how much trauma it causes to be up and down and up and down...and think today is the day...and wait for rumors...and be told it could be this day and then that day.

It's just time.

And it's really hard on the families waiting.  Such an emotional journey to begin with, but then to be quite literally thrown around up and down right at the end.

Are they really trying to break us down before building us up?

Too late.

PS - New post up over at "Bringing Keira Home - stop by, por favor?


S.Wise said...

Very well put. Too late indeed!

I can't wait to see you tomorrow..... I hope it is OUR time to shine tomorrow... we shall see...

4D said...

It is FAR too late and overdue. How much longer...we will have to wait and see. Hope it is not much.

Keep smilin!

Briana's Mom said...

It is cruel. I hate to say that, but it is true. There is no real reason that the next batch of referrals to have been delayed. Tomorrow is October 1. What happened to September? I'm sorry you have to experience this.

blissfully caffeinated said...

Oh hon, I'm so sorry. My thoughts are with you and I hope you get to see Keira's face soon. I have to believe that everything happens for a reason and that you are delayed because you are waiting for YOUR duaghter at the time you are supposed to have her. She'll be there soon, I know it.


The Gang's Momma! said...

I'm so sorry. Soooo sorry for the additional delays. It's got to be killing you, I'm sure. But hang in there if you can. I've been thinking of you every morning this week and last, wondering if today would be your day. I can hardly help myself, checking my Reader once or twice a day for updates from you . . . PRAYING!

Emy said...

This is such a heartbreaker! Thinking of you constantly!!!
Were you the sweetie that left the super duper supportive message on RQ for all the other waiting families?!?! :o)

Kristy said...

I agree Christie...I am so over all of this waiting. I am so over the CC** jackin with all of us. Just to know that they actually went on vacation probably not sending out referrals with no regard to all of us just has me so put out. I am a christian that probably can talk like a sailor more than she wants to admit when she gets mad, so I will just leave it right here, but I am so tired of the wait and would just like to know that we are thought of and respected a little bit more than I feel like we are.

Sorry I vented on you, but lets been building for us 4 years in October!!! Ugggggggg

Love ya girly