November 19, 2009

Silenced


Latest news tells us no referrals being sent out for November.

It appears "they" will be skipping another month, just like in September.

Some speculation on my part, but all signs point toward "not this time".  Again.  For the third month in a row.

Some talk around about referrals being held off for a while.

Don't know if or when we'll ever get this process behind us...

I just want to move on with my life.

And sadly, I'm starting to let the fear creep in that wonders if that life will include Keira Joy or not...







19 comments :

Young Creations said...

Yes yes yes it will include Keira. I feel it in my bones. I just know it. I am not sure why the test of time, but I know she is waiting. And needs her mama. Soon enough my long time waiting friend.

Lauren

S.Wise said...

DO NOT GIVE UP. DO NOT! This is what happened to us in September (skipped) with no end in sight for October. One day no referrals to be seen... ever? Three days later we got the call. YOU HANG IN THERE. (Can I even use more capital letters?) Your baby girl is not far away... she really isn't. This last part is horrible and feels like pure torture.... but in a flash, you will be okay again. Just like I was. Big hug my friend.

Jay and Kelly said...

Yes your life includes Keira it's just taking a little longer than it should. Hang in there! She is there waiting for her family to come get her.

Theis Family said...

Don't lose hope....your baby girl will come home! Its just that you are so close it hurts. When its over and look back you will see that the wait was worth waiting for. You will be blessed with the perfect child, I'm sure of it!

NiHao Nepal said...

I understand about wanting to get on with your life...but you really are so close now!!
When you called me back today, I was on your porch dropping off the stuff! Hope you got it! :-)

Cora said...

so sorry, I know it is hard and I can't even imagine what it is like to be so close and get this news. Just hang in there Keira is out there waiting. Big Hugs! don't feel bad for feeling this way you are not alone. take care, cora

Sue said...

Hang in there...it WILL happen. I feel for you..been there and it just plain stinks, no way around it.

Sending hugs!

Sue : )

Kelly and Todd said...

You have to hang in there b/c Keira's waiting and she will be a part of your family - I just know it. Deep in my heart I know it, and I can't wait until the day her referral arrives and we can see her beautiful face for the first time. I can only imagine how hard this must be for you guys - but don't give up hope.

Sending a big huge hug your way along with best wishes for a super successful garage sale this weekend.

-- kelly :-)

Kayce said...

Wanting to move ahead with you. Not a lot more I can say. Hugs and more hugs.

sooze66 said...

I totally agree with Stephanie, but having been there in September, I know there isn't anything any of us can say to make that hurt and pain go away. Don't lose the faith my friend, God has your daughter in His hand holding her safe until the day you meet her. Hang in there!!!!!

Valerie said...

Another hurdle of disappointment in a long line of hurdles.

How can we soothe a wound that will not heal until you are united with your precious one?

I just have to think, that while you are aware of what awaits you in the end, and time passes quickly with your darling boy, this wee one has waited her entire life for her family and doesn't know what is soon to happen to her world.

With your burden of knowledge, the wait is hard. With her lack of knowledge the wait has no purpose and she is unaware of the joy and hope that awaits her.

Focus on the heavier burden of your sweet girl. I pray her days alone are numbered and soon to be replaced wih the priceless gift of an amazing family.

I will help you with your burden any way I can.

Love V

Norma said...

positive vides going your way

Christy said...

It is going to happen-- you must know and belive that!! Do not get discouraged. It will happen soon- very soon. We dont even know the legitimacy of these rumors. Dont get down-- she is coming- she will be here soon!

Christy

Jill said...

So sorry that you have to keep waiting. We are always waiting for something as we build our families through adoption it seems. Hopefully by Christmas!

The Gang's Momma said...

Yeah, what everyone else said. Hang in there! My heart aches for you. I'm so sorry. Please, throw in some praise and worship music and let Him lift your head. Let Him fill your heart with His peace. Let Him show Himself glorious in the pain and the waiting. He's aching with you, I'm sure of it. Huge hugs. And have a great yard sale... Did that friend of mine ever connect with you? Praying for a BOUNTY tomorrow to encourage you and prepare your checkbook as He is preparing your heart :)

Anonymous said...

Quite frankly, I think you're right. I am logged in not long after you (04/05/06), and I don't see us getting a baby anytime in the next year. At the rate they are going, and skipping months, we likely won't see a referral until Mid-Summer next year. I'm not sure if either of us is willing to wait that much longer.

Eloise said...

Do not despair! Just think about how FAR you have come! This delay will pass and before long you will have Keira's picture, then you'll be busy with Christmas and travel arrangements, then you'll be going to China and they you will FINALLY hold your daughter in your arms. Each day that passes is one day closer to your dream. Don't let go now!

Can't wait to hear how the garage sale went today!

XOXO

Anonymous said...

I am discouraged for you, but it WILL include Keira! ~Holly

J said...

Christy,
I'm so sorry to hear that November may not be your month to see your sweet Keira. I hope and pray that December is your month. What a celebration you will have.

Thoughts and prayers,
Joanne