May 11, 2009

I Still Believe

In June of 2005, Anton and I began a journey to adopt a little baby girl from China. Four years have passed and we've certainly been learning during that time about patience, acceptance, grief, and longing.

It has been particularly hard on us lately - to realize how far from those first days of the adoption process for Keira we have journeyed - only to still not have her home with us.

But as I was driving to church yesterday, a favorite song of mine came on by Jeremy Camp called "I Still Believe". I was weeping before I could stop myself - realizing that despite longing for Keira for well over 1,460 days, I still believe in the faithfulness of the Lord to bring her home to us. Someway, somehow...someday...

Knowing that His timing is perfect and that had Keira come home when we planned, Quint would not have come home at all. The timing would have been wrong. Knowing and trusting that through our pain and longing, God's faithfulness has proven true over and over again in our lives. Just look at our beautiful son!

Despite not knowing how everything will work out - when we will actually see her face, hold her, touch her, comfort her...and bring her home to her beautiful little room - I still believe in His word...and His promises.

Even when all hope seems gone, I still believe...




14 comments :

Jenn said...

Beautiful post, Christie. I made it through your slideshow with dry eyes until I saw the picture of Q looking into the empty crib...ouch. What a journey this has been, huh? We are clinging to our faith as well because this process has defied all reason. Hopefully, we just need to hand on just a bit longer. Hugs.

Christy said...

That song brings me to tears everytime. I love the video and while we did not have to wait even close to what you did, I remember that heart ache but reaching deep to try to remember that God has a plan for our family and Mia would come in HIS time not ours. I admire your faith. BUT, you are close and hopefully the wait will not be too much longer-- getting close!!

Hugs,

Chrsty:)

Catherine said...

Keep on believing Christie!! Keira is born and soon you will know who your baby girl is and hold her in your arms!!

Kristy said...

Christie this was a beautiful post. Our first meeting was in October of 05, and at that time I never dreamed that we would still be waiting in 2009 , but one thing I know for sure is that HE does have a plan and one day soon we will be staring into the faces of our beautiful daughters.

I DO BELIEVE!

Love and blessings, Kristy

Lisa (Briana's Mom) said...

Good grief Christy, I am typing through tears! That was beautiful! She's coming - very soon...

The Gang's Momma said...

For whatever reason, I can't see the video right now. But from the other's comments, that's probably good. I'm due for a family b'day dinner in 25 minutes, and I don't cry pretty. I'd scare them all.

Love the hopefulness of this post, tho. And am so excited to pray with you for the day. The Big Day. Waiting with you. And believing with you.

Anonymous said...

That was beautiful.

deany

S.Wise said...

Me too. :) Sniffle sniffle.

Valerie said...

Wonderful post and the slide show is amazing, pictures do tell the tale.

We are following very similar paths and throuh the wait we were given the gift of our sons.

It all makes sense once you are on the other side of the mountain and can see the entire journey.

She will come and with her more happiness than you thought possible.

Love Valerie

Christie said...

Hi Christie, My mom, Susan Hendrix, sent me the link to your blog. She ADORES your family! You have such a beautiful little boy, and my husband and I will continually pray for little Keira.

Room for Grace said...

I thought of you guys this morning as Piper and I drove home from taking the olders to school. I just can't believe you guys were only 6 months behind us in line, and you. are. still. waiting.
I just can't imagine, really. So I came home and thought I'd check on you. Oh the tears spilling out of my eyes during the slideshow!
I cannot wait to see Keira Joy's face, can't wait! Love that song by the way :)

Kayce said...

Beautiful post Christie. I too love that song, I just heard it the other day and was thinking similar thoughts. We will make it though this and we will then understand this wait. Like I always say but is sometimes hard to do....Keep the faith. Hugs.

Eloise said...

My heart aches for you, Christie, as you wait for your beautiful daughter. I keep thinking that perhaps the long wait has something to do with the spacing between Quint and Keira's ages. Maybe God wants it to be clear that Quint is the big brother. I don't know! But I admire your tenacity and faith and I KNOW you will be rewarded. I hope it's soon!

blissfully caffeinated said...

She'll come home Christie. Really.

Hey, in a totally frivolous and non-related topic, I was really hoping to see some prom pictures out of you today. Dang it.

:)